sedih tul!!

salam, today my class wif 5 Utarid very successfully being done...why? they all can recall all of my teaching lesson...eventhough pupils who absent last saturday...within almoz 30 mins they all can master da terms of changes of da matters..alhamdulillah....yesterday, whole day wasting time in bed...hehe, revenge time after a day didn't sleep..kononle...but then, met da lecturer n fellow frenz, they all suspect that we haven't finish da RPH...that's not nearly true le...of coz, u didn't make da final writing on da record book, juz only da draft, coz didn't so sure whether da lesson would be suitable to be implemented or should be less....hrmm...

nex wik, start da observation period...nervous ler, portfolio n record book xgempax, camne nk cemerlang nih..huhu, prasan keje xwat but nk dpt banyak plak...xpe la, at liz ade intention n target yg lebih tinggi, so atliz wat keje lebih sket...

one very interesting tragedy happen today was....i was very disappointed coz i felt like i wasn't welcomed in that school..mayb i was so sensitvein this few wiks..sbenaqnye rindu suasana cuti n spent time wif family kn..huhu~~actually, arini da 1st time i felt like a beggar who korek2 kuar sampah carik smula my pj putfit, then my student's hmwork, of coz my all stationary...yg paling sedih, 1 bundle of color paper n envelope yg org sgt simpan jaga2 xde...bukan sebab mahal ape ke..but b sensible ler...tink of other person's feeling kn...walaupon km ni mcm merempat, tlg2 le paham, we'll still maseh blaja nk adapt n b more proactive..

ok ler, continue to release out all distress nex time after i finish up all my works...sayonara~~

sebak tp tiada maknanya lg

salam, hr ni, benda yg mmg dah lame i tink i dun wanna hear but ready to accept, then actually i x kuat nk mendengarnya...coz i know, that's all mistakes came from my ownself...coz i plan to do it...so i hv to accept if this is da fate that He wanna b to b...wallahua'alam..ape nye tu...ntah le, sedih n hiba, but i know now i'm in new road...remember da road not taken...poem that we learnt during english literature....it would happen to everyone, but it depends on da person to choose da way he wanna b...i had a chance to go to star wif jet craft, no fees at all, but then, it was me who demands for bicycle instead...very rugi...i realised but i knew actually i luv cycling coz it gives me more benefits interms of developing my whole potential..either physically, practically, emotionally n especially my quality of life...so, wat does it mean wif star? wat jet n bicycle represent wif???? only me can answer it...

n today, i tink i had done a big mistake, shoul not revealed my background...dun wanna high expectation from sum1 else...let it b a secret but i will prove that i done da jobs wif all my heart...except certain parts which i tink no need to do coz i tink i can take it from my mind n soul...ya Allah, aku rindu pd nikmat terdahulu...Kau memberi ku peluang merasainya...tapi ku minta Kau berilah nikmat itu utk selama2nya...supaya membw diri ini dekat pd Mu..amin, hanya Kau yg tahu apa terbuku d hati n pikiran ini....


i promise to myself to b better in quality of da life...not juz da performance...not juz ur achievement...coz all that things would give u advantages juz for a while...u will not bring it together when u r died...let all things happen now, under ur control...coz u let da situation controls ur life before....let passed b da memory that u need to forget...except da truely friendship in finding da perfect n best way to hv His barakah....insya-Allah....amiin

practicum

hello, today is da 2nd day of practicum in sentul gitu~~about 20 mins away from my apartment...huhu, 1st day such a hurry we went off in da early of morning, afraid we might be trapped in da traffic...means bad impression if we late for lapor diri...huhu, but then, we realised that lai's car was da 1st vehicle arrived in da school...fuyoo...cemerlang gituh, so today, i tink lai drove more carefully n slower sket..xrush mcm yesterday...but da bad tings on him happen pagi2 tu...patutler lewat amik kami, his car remuk la kat pintu dpn tu, langgar gate umah sdiri, padahal otomatik canggih tu...but, alhamdulillah slamat sampai jugak...

progress today:
1)dpt melawat sume labs...tau x ade 3 : alpha (tahap1), beta (tahap2) n gamma (free mane2)....then g libry, very big n mcm wau!! but then, da sources mcm sket je...then masuk studio 'mini akedemi sentul' rase...boleh wat ballet gitu...
2)rase dah sesat sgt dlm covered buildings tu...hehe
3)dpt punch kad gituh...but still kna record manually...ntahle, wat da purpose of technology...takut mase xde letrik kot...b +ve
4)jd assistant on hari terbuka nanti
5)gosip terhangit sudah terkantoi dpn bijik mata
6)diskus pasal plan esok...xsiap lg rph...but dpt gmbrn...kira normal pnp ler, no abm

kuciwa:
1)still xwat reflexn
2)xdpt jupe HEM n KP ENG
3))lapor tramat coz xsarapan..tunggu geng sentul(2) abez miting..then menyental kat new mamak's stall tu..almaklumler no transportation
4)nk wat rph yg gempx xleh ngt, coz bbm susah nk dpt no access n modal bln ni
5)still xdpt chemistry yg bgs dlm relationshp km ni...km?? hanya yg paham istilah 'makcik' paham kisah benar...but alhamdulillah, i ni take for granted je hal kecik tu..janji xskaitkn ati tahap max...so, b open-minded n +ve all time k

misc:
really wanna hear news from other clamates bout their rph..nk klo bleh uplot kongsi2 ler...hehe

ngantuk n pnat padahal keje sume tertangguh lg...xtau nk wat pe ni...baik tdo naa...nite!

refresh da life

assalamualaikum~~sungguh lama tak tgk blog..padahal mase tu maseh ade kuliah lg..but since ade insiden yg menyebabkn i sengaja xnak aktifkn tenet...hehe...plus ngan kemalasan melampau...then, rase mcm ketidaksangkaan bebanan yg harus dijalani seorg educator~~before, while n after being a teacher~~huhu


so, today, after 2 wiks of olidayz, refresh of mind, body n soul maybe, but da most valuable thing that i got...which makes oliday this time different to normal olidayz yg slalu i jalani after every semester skolah....ialah kenangan2 lalu terimbau kembali dlm kotak minda~~dan begitu menghargai saat-saat gentir mahupun bahagia yg pernah dilalui secara sedar atau tidak...klo persaan ni pernah i dpt mase fikiran n pandangan mengenai sesuatu itu tercetus...ni kira betul2 perasaan yg hampir same dilalui mase tu menerjah kembali...chewah~~betul


ntahlah, i tink pandangan saya kini berbeza n maybe better sdikit berbanding 2 thn kebelakangan ni...n most importantly, mmg i tgh mencari identiti yg sbenarnye..insya-Allah.tp dah tau dah perangai yg common bg diri ni... mg Allah maseh sayang n trus beri petunjuk & panduan atas setiap gerak laku yg dbuat...amiin...

konon blogging bleh melatih diri ni menjelaskan sesutau yg terbuku di ati..but then i admit that i could not share sumting which i tink it would be best for me to kip it myself...let me kip it until i found da perfect time n of coz perfect person to share wif...

for those who knows me, n read this entry, u r free to comment on me..to let me realise da real me...to reflect da reaaaalllll me....acts as mirror la katakan....hehe


Things that I know about myself:

*secretive
*panas baran but still cover2 sket
*pemalu, kekadang xbertempat
*pemalas pada hal2 yg mmg xnk buat
*kepala batu ^O^
*pendendam sket, but slalunye mcm talam
*konon matang tp xmatang
*dunno wat is really my hobby or interest
*penakut tp ala2 barani
*very determined but not tomboy or kasaq naa
*easily influenced by external (xsgt) n internal (kekadang) factors in making decision
*bechok...but sumtime nampak serius or sombong..klo mood xde
*moody, especially klo xde perasaan nk wat lawak
*banyak le rasenyer lg......

wokeh, kt stat blogging smula especially when it comes to practicum period...coz mesti byk cite menarik yg bleh dkongsi...ngeh3